Freddie has to say:

“At least in this life, even though I’m a gander, I have a nice, round bum! Will you just look at it? And Lord knows…I still love baths, but sharing the pool with ducks is another matter. They muddy the water before I have a chance to get in. And there are no more bubble baths, though I do sing in the pool the same as I used to as a man.”


“This is modern times…Rock n’ Roll”

“All I remember anymore, darlings, is that I was in Japan and Mark Hayward took photographs. Looking back, the sleeves on that jacket were rather short.” — Freddie the Rock God Gander, remembering his past life as Freddie Mercury.

Artwork based on a photograph by Mark Hayward.

Freddie Hires Sketch Artist

Freddie would like me to inform you that he’s hired a sketch artist to assist him with media releases. As a gander he’s just too busy to stop and pose for photos and he dislikes paparazzi. His rock collecting and saying, “RAWR!” all the time doesn’t afford him the time to talk to media.


This is Freddie’s sketch artist:


The artist doesn’t have a name. From what we know she rubs Zanzibar in her hair and loves curry.


Freddie Comments About Adam Lambert and Brian’s Statement to the Media

"I look down at the snow and I can't believe those are my footprints I see. Some days the realization that I'm a goose startles me."
“I look down at the snow and I can’t believe those are my footprints I see. Some days the realization that I’m a goose is frightening.”


I’ve been nagging Freddie for weeks about putting something on the blog, but he’s been insistent about needing space and privacy. A few days ago, however, he began hinting–making comments here and there about the media reports I’ve shared with him regarding what Brian May is supposed to have said:

“We didn’t look for this guy, but suddenly he’s there — and he can sing all of those lines,” May says of Lambert in a new interview. “See, they’re difficult songs to sing, Queen songs. There’s too much range that plenty of people can’t sing them in the original key — even if they are good singers. Adam comes along, and he can do it easy. He can do it in his sleep! He can sing higher than even Freddie could, in a live situation.”

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Back in December when this first made headlines and I told Freddie about it, he didn’t seem particularly rattled. After a bit of mumbling and saying he wished he could smoke a bloody cigarette, he waved a wing in the air and said, “Darling, it’s the media.”

I could tell, though, that he was hurt. Not the kind of hurt that he would blame Brian for.

“The comment is neither here nor there. Perhaps it’s true: Adam sings higher than I did in my former life,” Freddie said.

And then he paused.

“But he doesn’t sing as high as I do in this life.”

Same old Freddie. He’s still got it.

Freddie gazes thoughtfully at his koi and his goldfish, listening to the song "Delilah" he wrote about his favorite cat in his former life as a rock star.
Freddie gazes thoughtfully at his koi and goldfish, listening to the song “Delilah” he wrote about his favorite cat in his former life as a rock star.

Freddie’s sadness is evident. As I write this he’s sitting on his royal gander pillows watching his beloved koi, albeit not the same koi he cherished in his past life at the real Garden Lodge, but he loves watching them all the same. Most things about Freddie haven’t changed one bit–except, of course, that he’s a gander now. The old Freddie, alive as ever, struts the living room from end to end, Queen blasting from the radio, his mood changing with each song. “Delilah” starts playing and Freddie’s face turns contemplative and calm. He stands on the rug, admiring his fish.

“O, if only I could have a cat,” he sighs, knowing our situation doesn’t allow for a cat at the moment.

He wants a cat. He’s Freddie. Freddie gets what Freddie wants.

Believe me when I say there’s evidence of Freddie’s type-A temper. Sometimes I find the steak knife I use to cut open his chow, flung on the floor. Perhaps he’s out there in the Duck House singing at night, frustrated by the limits of his tongue. He often sings the same notes he did in Queen songs, but he cannot form the words.

“It’s good enough, Freddie,” I tell him.

Freddie stands close as I write this. At times I think I see the glimmer of tears hanging on the edge of his eyelid and he says, "Muuuuhhhh."
Freddie stands close as I write this. At times I think I see the glimmer of tears hanging on the edge of his eyelid when he says, “Muuuuhhhh.”

But I know he’s sad. And this is the sadness that touches him when he hears what’s being said in the media.

Freddie thinks Adam Lambert a talented young man, no doubt about it. He’s taking this all with a grain of salt, at least that’s what he wants me–and everyone else–to think.

“No one would believe what’s happened to me,” Freddie said one afternoon.

“Who cares what anyone thinks?”

“That’s easy for you to say. You’re not a goose.”

And then he said:

“Some things never change, darling.”

Lonely as a man, lonely as a gander.

“I just collect rocks instead of stamps.” (Always covering his remorse by poking fun at himself and his situation.)

“Rawr. My Rawr is dangerous!” he marvels. “Let’s not forget that I’m still watching you, Brian and Roger. The Internet, it’s a machine’s world, indeed, so mysterious. Here I am. Born a gosling barely two years ago. My conscience in tact. I remember it all! The tastes, the sights, the smells, the touch. I hear a few strokes of the piano keys and I’m in a moment thirty five years ago. I close my eyes and I’m sitting on that piano bench. And then I open my eyes again and–fuck it: I’m a goose.”

Freddie's response to the media is that they can still "eat shit", he'd rather take a selfie.
Freddie’s response to the media is that they can still “eat shit”, he’d rather take a selfie.

After saying this, Freddie laughed. I wonder if he’s really crying inside. Does he hide it? There’s a sound he makes now, as a goose, a pitiful grieving sound that he only utters when someone turns their back to leave. Maybe he releases some of his agony with these cries. He is very much in the moment. If I turn back toward him and begin talking him up, he immediately straightens, turns on his ankles as if he’s on stage at Live Aid, and acts as if he’s as chipper as a gander can be. Other times, after dancing for a while to his own music, he settles down and as the music plays he utters the occasional lamenting, “Uhhhhhhhhhh.”

Dare I say he reminds me of Justin Long’s hopeless character in the movie Tusk--stuck inside the body of a walrus, moaning pitifully, still human, yet no one will ever understand?

“I while my days away overseeing a flock of ducks.”

Yet, tonight in the living room Freddie carefully waved one beautiful white feather from his shoulder onto the top of the crate where one of the duck hens is housed while she recovers from egg laying issues.

“I am a goose of extremes, just like I was a man of extremes back then. I’m still the same person, I just occupy a different vessel…and I shit a lot more.”

Another laugh. I picture him with a cigarette, even though he’s a goose.

“It’s Brian’s turn now. I’m not fit to live it. Not to say that in my present circumstances I won’t outlive Brian or Roger or John. Who can say what will happen, really? Will Brian knock on my door? Probably not. But, you’re talking to someone who has seen it all. I look in the mirror and I think, ‘My god, I’m a goose.’ I woke up and I was in a bin with a bunch of mean baby chickens who tried to peck my eyes out and my feet were turned inward. It was the most terrifying thing to wake up that way…to wake up at all. And it was all very confusing, really. I spent weeks in this tiny, fuzzy body and everything was humongous. And then I heard my music. It was a slow waking up. The music. Riding in automobiles. Going to parties. Then everything came flooding back. Now I have to accept that I live here, in my own Garden Lodge with a Duck House out back. Really, I will be lucky if I can have a cat.”

Notes From A Gander On How To Have A Proper Tea


Freddie says:

This is how you hold a teacup-


 This is how you pour tea-


  • These days you add milk to your tea and not the other way around. This way you control the color of the tea. You want your tea to look like tea, not milk. (Unless you use antique bone China, then pour the milk first.)
  • Always use milk, not cream.
  • Do not use lemon AND milk together. The milk will curdle.
  • Don’t teabag your tea. Let the tea bag rest and then take it out. No teabagging, as amusing as it may be.
  • Make sure the water went past the boiling point.
  • Tea bags without strings and staples and paper and doodads are preferable.
  • Never stick your pinkie finger out.
  • Never use the microwave.
  • Only hold the saucer under the tea while standing.
  • Don’t leave the tea bag or spoon in the teacup.
  • If using a teapot, take the teapot to the kettle and pour the hot water in and not the other way around.
  • Some say the teapot must be swished with boiling water to prepare it for the tea. Tea cannot be steeped properly in a cold pot.
  • A tea cozy keeps the teapot warm for a long time; they’re not just cute afterthoughts. (Someone please knit a tea cozy for me.)
  • Tea cups do not have to match.
  • When stirring tea, do so silently, without clanging the spoon on the edges of the cup.
  • A tea pot should have multiple holes in the spout, not just one.
  • Do not substitute Earl Grey for English Breakfast tea. Ha! Ha!
  • When removing the tea spoon, set it leaning on the saucer to the right of the tea cup.
  • If serving tea with scones, cut the scones in half. Dab bits of curd and jams onto your saucer with the serving spoon and then return the serving spoon to its proper place. Do not use the serving spoon for your personal spreads. Use your own spoon or spreading knife.
  • Take small bites. Tea is a time for conversation and relaxation. DON’T EAT LIKE YOU WERE CULTURED IN THE BLOODY USA.

Man Is Not A Bird: Yes, There’s a Gander Who Watches Movies

The movies Freddie enjoys watching would surprise you. Sometimes, late at night, I grab the chance to watch a movie before bed. I’m lucky if I can stay awake. If Freddie’s in the room that night, I have to be even more selective.

Freddie has to have everything his way.

Freddie watching Dušan Makavejev films which he can't seem to take a break from. It's like Mystery Ex-Yu Theater Freddie 3000.
Freddie watching Dušan Makavejev films which he can’t seem to take a break from. It’s like Freddie Ex-Yu Theater 3000.

If Freddie doesn’t like my movie choice, then he screams. Have you heard a goose scream? Not just the husky honk of a Toulouse or an Embden, but the shriek of an upset Chinese swan goose who claims he was Freddie Mercury in his past life?

I change the movie.

Breaking Bad. War of the Roses. Rocky.

unnamed (7)Out of the question. Freddie is particular. He doesn’t like confrontations. People can’t yell at each other, push, shove, punch or appear as if they are standing there on-screen looking directly at him.

He gets Goosietude!

On the other hand, he surprises me sometimes. Quite the fan of David Attenborough, as can be expected, it interests me that he became so engrossed in a collection of films I checked out from the library called Free Radical, Eclipse Series 18, The Criterion Collection, short films by Dušan Makavejev. Known for revolutionary work during the sixties that pushed the boundaries of the film world, Dušan Makavejev seems an odd candidate for Freddie to favorite. Dark, raucous films with odd and shocking imagery, he remained glued to the screen and I drifted off to sleep not having the chance to watch much of the third film in the collection, Innocence Unprotected.

And would you believe the first film on the disc is titled Man Is Not A Bird? I kid you not. How strange is that?

These films are memorable and I plan to find them again when I have time to examine them further. For the second film in the set,, describes as such:


Dušan Makavejev 1967

This story of the tragic romance between a young telephonist (Eva Ras) and a middle-aged rodent sanitation specialist (Slobodan Aligrudic) in Belgrade is an endlessly surprising, time-shifting exploration of love and freedom.

Never a dull moment with Freddie the Rock God Gander around.